Day 72 and 73 - Surrealism

Sometimes, life is just too surreal, and I feel like I am standing on the verge of reality and lala-ness.

Things happened too fast and time zipped by too quickly. Sometimes, it's hard to keep track the events and people that whizzed by us.

The two days felt too long, chain of events from planning for my yoga course to changing it, comp-let-down to revival, people-come-people-go, pushing through the last burn to recovering in the next set. All is just like a pendulum swing - to and fro, continuous yet bringing about a new cycle when it seemed to end. I guess the only constant is change. Things change, people change, events change, I changed.

Changes are typical "I know" scenarios, yet when change comes, we're often taken aback and find it hard to embrace it.

Guess the only way to really live it up is to soak up the experience and live in the moment of joy/pain in gratitude. All changes that come are to bring about the best in us. There's no good or bad, only consequences that aid as a feedback to ourselves on how to better ourselves.

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This reminds me of an old favorite of Dali's. . .

It's all about perspective.

Day 69, 70, 71 - Don't look back

The new exercise regime for the week is killer. KILLER! Interestingly, the new requirement for the shoulders today - DaVinci: 5 sets x failure - shifted my paradigm on how the mind can push further when there is no limit set. I was able to push on to 25 reps (the usual was 20 reps) till my face was scrunched up and there was tremendous burn in my shoulders. Reach for the sky and you'll touch the tree top!

The power of mind.

Otherwise, jumps are getting easier and after watching a video on rope jumping, I even did different kinds of jumps in between my regular jumps. It's kind of nice to think about nothing else and just jump/skip along - therapeutic.

19 more days to go, there's no looking back now except to push on forward - full on!

Day 64, 65, 66, 67, 68 - Back in the game

When I see running number (of days) on my blog, that's a sign of laziness and ill-disciplined. For the past 2 weeks, I have been following my diet pretty much, missing my exercises probably once in every two days (that makes 2 times a week for 2 weeks in a row) and blogging once every 5 days (apparent from the latest 2 entries). This is unbearable. The last lap is always the hardest, just like the last set in every exercises in PCP, it takes much more to complete. This is like the last dash before the finish line and I find myself dwindling in spirit. It seems like the inertia is getting greater when I would expect it to be easier to just push on.

I reverted to morning exercises. Made myself wake up to jump and finished my sets for the day.

It's only 22 more days to go. I do not want to waste any more of my PCP period wallowing in this negativity!! I am back in the game! It's gonna be full on for the next 3 weeks!!!

Day 59.60.61.62.63 - Computer Hangover

My computer went dead. I was not able to boot up my parallel and it's annoying. Sometimes, it's a slap in the face when I realised how dependent I am on certain things in life and their failure brought annoyance to my state.

Anyhow, a rant. My discipline on exercise is also proportionate to the emotional/mental (down) state caused by my computer failure. Staring at the clock now past midnight and I had yet to start my workout.

Must push on. ARRGGHHHH.

Day 58 - Pushing through Push Up and Curious Case of Couscous

Finally!!! I managed to push through 4sets of push ups without a single push up with my knees on the floor! Woot woot!!

My first attempt on cooking couscous after 2 months of bread/pasta/wraps. After scalding my broccoli, I added some miso paste to the water (yap, rich with dissolved minerals that had sneakily seeped out of my broccoli), and poured the couscous into the miso stock. Not a very successful attempt as the couscous looks a bit - uhm - sticky/damp. Think there's too much water *shrugs*.

However, the taste was great! I am going to test it out again till I get the water-to-couscous proportion right!

Day 57 - Jump Trance

The timed jumps sent me into a trance these days. I am just breathing, focusing on every jump, doing my best not to get annoyed with any hicks and trips - just continuous jump, hop, skip. The tapping sound when the rope hits the ground coincides with my breathe and heartbeat. Indeed, jump trance. Till of course, the alarm goes off on the 4th minute.

Upon reflecting on the jumps, I saw a correlation with my life pace these weeks. My days just zipped by and I was just so caught up in the passing activities and getting myself physically and mentally challenged that, upon stepping back now, I actually have little clue what I had done.

That's scary.

Then again, probably like the jumps, when I am in the moment, focusing on every skip, I had made subtle changes to my body which I had not given credit to. When the alarm sounded and all ceased, I should be glad that it had passed, and each hop/skip/jump had made a mark somewhere. So I guess, the activities that had passed and been experienced in the past weeks may not have effects that were apparent then and now, but they had shaped me somehow along the way.

Day 56 - Connectedness

Today, I saw and felt gratitude in someone's eyes and tone. It was lovely. Truly, one of the most amazing moment is to feel that resonance of gratefulness in me and others.

When I saw her walked away despondently, head hung low and making a resolution under her breathe on her determined next step, my heart sank. I ran to her and was delighted (and privileged!) to break the great news to her in eagerness. The startled look on her face immediately lit up in brilliance.

Joy is infectious.

The indescribable connection of one's within with without.

*beams*